2013!

2013, hm......gimme more happiness, hurtness, sadness.

idk, 2bln ini yang namanya random random bgt. dr mulai senengbgt,sedihbgt,sampe flat aja. I think this month gimme so many the best memories ever

hm dari mulai pertama.

setelah taun baru&menghabiskan sepanjang malam berdua sama syahrulmahesa hahaha itu gua makin sayang banget.dia main dirumah gua trs kita keliling2 ketemu tmn2 nya yaaaaa asikdeh pokoknya haha&dunoo bbrp hari setelah itu gua jd malah takutbgt kehilangan dia,tapi gua sama sekali gapernah ngekang dia.mau chat sm siapa aja bebas asal ngga berlebihan,malah kalo gua ngekang dia bisa gabetah&jatoh nya bosenan.mana ada yang mau pacaran sama nenek lampir right?haha.tp gbs diboongin gua takutbgt kehilangan dia.sampe pas dia nemenin gua lunch abis muter2 nyari buku,kita ke sevel dpn stan.ujan2an-_- sampe sana kita order&lgsg keatas.ngobrol banyak bercanda2 kaya biasa,jail kaya biasa.sampe............sampe gua liat hp dia.ok gaada chat sm sekali,sbnrnya ada jg gpp gua gaakan marah asal gaada yg ditutupin dari gua.krn gua gapercaya&kepo bgt gua bukain tuh chat history nya satusatu,cm giting gua ngecekin segitu banyak contact-_- sampe akhirnya gua milih salah satu deh cewe yg menurut gua dia kayanya masih syg.mantan nya,cuma umurnya beda jauh diatasnya&itu alesannya kenapa mereka gabisa pacaran-_- &gua tau 

'kayanya' alul masih sayangbgt sama mantan nya; nydia. ya, cuma masih kayanya kan,biarpun kata dia nggak hahaha.gua liat chat history nya&...............rasanya mau pulang pas itu jg.mau nangis disitu malu2in,dan ga gua baca sampe akhir.gasanggup liatnya,itu baru aja tadi dia chat&blg brb hp nya mau dipegang ibunya,k;) &itu sweet bgt.cuma gua diem gangomong setelah gua balikin hp dia.ya pura2 kaya biasa aja krn gua gamau hubungan gua sama dia gimana2,tapi gagalbgt,gua emang paling parah masalah acting,jebot.gua gabisa mesti pura2 gini pura2 gitu ya kalo sedih sedih aja..........sampe dia nanya 'sar kamu kenapasih?beda banget' yaudah setelah itu gua minta pulang.dia bilang 'serius?masih sore loh,gamau sama aku dulu?' 'ngga ah lul gaenak badan' yaudah dia anterin gua pulang,biasa nya dimotor kita ngobrol,bercanda2.tp skrng nggaaa sama sekali, diem2an.hm ralat,gua yang gamau bls omongan dia.gatau gua msh mikirin yang tadi.baru buka 1 chat aja udah gitu,astaga-_- finally udh depan rumah.biasanya setelah turun dr motor gua salim&cium pipi dia tanpa dia minta,trs bilang assalamualaikum haha itu udah rutinitas;$ tp malem itu ngga,gua gabisa sama sekali gatau bawaannya lemes,gamood,pengen cepet2 masuk kamer.sampe2 turun dr motor gua langsung nyelong aja,sampe dia narik tangan gua terus bilang 'kamu kenapasih?jangan ada yang ditutupin dari aku.katanya mau kebuka?' dalem hati,haha sadar kali pak yang ga kebuka siapa,shit.ok gua cuma senyum blg gaenak badan.dia ngelus kepala gua&gua lgsg ngibrit masuk rumah.sampe rumahpun gua ga lgsg bbm dia,dia duluan.dia nanya&akhirnya gua jelasin.gatau gmn gua gabisa ngendaliin emosi gua,gua minta putus.awalnya dia gamau,ya tapi gua kekeh pokoknya harus putus,mungkin dia masih punya malu akhirnya ya yaudah kita putus.&&&&&& SETELAH ITU GUA NYESELBGT gatau knp-_-yaudah,sampe situ aja.mls lanjutin

yg kedua....siapaya?-_-oya.bayu; bayu pratama. gua kenal dia dari bbm,awalnya dia greet gua&chat basi gitulah,masih flat2 aja.yaaaaa lo cewecewe taukan kl udh biasa tiap hari chat&kdg disepikin mau gamau pasti ada rasa lah,ya gua suka sih,cuma cuma suka.sampe tiba2 malem apaya lupa,dia bilang dia sayang gua.&kita jd aku kamuan sayang2an dll lah kaya orang pacaran gitu-_- kita otpan hampir tiap malem&sweet bgt deh sama dia.gatau gimana pokoknya gua sayang dia,banget.sampe tbtb dia berubah,ok gua ngertiin dia kelas 12 pasti sibuk.pikiran gua gitu,cuma gataudeh.terus...............3 hari kayagitu.galau banget pastinya haha&sampe satu malem ada temen dia,bbm gua kalo si bayu ternyata ga syg gua aja,intinya gitu.okay jd kmn dulu basi2an janji dia...................gua nangis.gatau karena sayang/karena nyesel.yaudha gua broken bgt&dia yagitu deh,key don't talk about it. oh well- disini bikin gue semakin percaya kalo omongan cowo ga bisa dipercaya, they all do always talk a shit.  

sampe yang ke3,ryan rivaldy.kalian pasti udah tau kalo ttg dia-_-ya pokoknya cintamati gua deh cuma gajelas hubungannya hahaha.ya dikit ajasih,pokoknya gua deket sama dia masih kaya dulu,sampe tbtb gua udah gatauya udah capek kali,pas itu juga dia nembak gua.tanggal 6,ya gmnsih gua sayangbgt masa gua tolak,yaudah 'mungkin' setelah itu kita jadian.but.........hm.backstreet,mungkin.atau dia takut ketauan alusannya,atau dia malu pacaran sm gua,gataulah.pokoknya dia kaya ngga serius,gangasih kabar,ga masang status dll.gua udah seribu kali dibikin dia skt hati ok enough.&setelah itu gua blg anggep aja gapernah ada apa2,terlalu sakit. I'm tryin' to don't hope too much but I couldn't. I'm tryin' to let go but my heart won't.
I'm tryin' to be pretending like I don't care but I can't. i already love him too much.

sampe yg ke-4.abi; adliabiyyu.ok gua deket sama si kecil ini,dia dateng setelah cowo2 itu nyakitin&dia moodbooster banget.kebetulan juga temen nya bayu-_-  ya kaya mt gitulah ckck tapi yaudah yang penting skrng samasama sayang haha.dia juga bantuin gua biar bener2 lepas dr bayu gasedih2 lg gtdeh;3 cause i still think him everynight,talked about him everynight,missed him everynight&abi gapernah protes sama semua itu malah tambah nyayangin gua:') dia lucu anaknyaa pendek imut&sok alim.sok suci,serba sok deh hahaha tapi baikbgt.dia gasuka cewe bandel&ok i'll try buat jadi yg dia suka.bukan buat jadi yang dia suka; tapi dengerin kata2 dia,&berubah jadi lebih baik pastinya.dia beda deh sama cowo2 lain amin,meskipun sempet boong dia kls 9&ternyata 8,jd gua suka brondong:......haha.  

yaudah gitu terus dia janji gamau ninggalin gua nyakitin gua dan yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gitulah ok semoga bener deh,doain yang terbaik ya♥

I just wanna saying thankyou for you all that hurt me,actually you teach me how to be more patient.
& thankyou for someone who gimme more happiness.

K, thanks for reading guys, goonight.

Do Not Read.

Love is a feeling, not a decision. mau dipaksain gimana pun kalo hatinya ke dia bakal balik nya ke dia lagi kan? haha. disini gua dapet banget banyak pelajaran, pelajaran kalo disakitin tuh bener-bener gaenak.

gua kenal dia dari bbm. gatau gimana tiba2 dia add gua, kita chat panjaang. dia nyenengin anaknya, lucu, perhatian, dia kakak gua paling baik☺

dari status kakak2an, gatau begimana pokoknya awal2nya gua gimana ya haha cuman alus2 biasa aja. karma kali ya, gua sayang beneran. anjrit sayang banget. gila sayang bangeeettt hahaha lebay ye bodo emg gini adanya wkwk. gimana sih ya namanya manusia, kalo udah sayang pasti ada hasrat pengen memiliki kan haha. dan baru kali ini. gua nunggu segini lamanya, sakit gua telen sendiri deh, gaada hari tanpa galau semenjak kenal dia haha. sama dia tuh kesiksa. gak contactan gua galau, contactan lebih galau. gua kesel sama diri sendiri, terlalu mikirin hati orang, gamikirin hati sendiri. gua cuman mau dia peka sama yang ada, kita kenal gak sehari duahari kok. all i need in the end is someone who will hold you and say everything is alright. nyatanya? haha sedih tauga capek.

curhat ya haha gua tuh orangnya aneh, labil, goblok, sok2an kuat, sok2an bilang bisa, tai. haha. mungkin orang yang belom deket sama gua, yang sekedar kenal dan sekedar tau mereka kira gua gampang move on, gampang ganti2 cowok. SOTOY LO PADAAA haha. susah broo, semenjak sama rizky gua gapernah buka hati buat siapa2 lagi kecuali dia, dan masih single, masih nungguin sampe sekarang. buat RR haha. pernah tuh satu hari, kita udah biasa saling bilang aku sayang kamu gitu2 deh emang semua org yang pdkt gitu kan ya? haha. cuman malem ini beda...........dan nyelekit.

gua bilang gua sayang dia. gua yakinin pokoknya, terus dia..............hahaha terus dia bilang 'sarrr kita jadian ajadeh hehe aku juga sayang kamu' gimana sih senengnya. seneng bangeeet parah banget. cuman dia orang yang abis nerbangin tinggi dijatohin sejatoh2 nya gimana sih? haha. terus gua bilang kamu serius? dia bilang serius laah hehe kamu maugaa? gimana sih gua nunggu lama kalo gaditerima tolol namanya haha gua bilang iyaa mau. trs dia bilang 'gadeng bercanda' JLEB. gimana perasaan lo? gua tahan. gapapa. pas itu gua nangis kejer gua ngerti dia emang main2 sama gua, tapi hati lebih gabisa main2 kan? haha gua gabisa marah. gua bilang iyaaa sayang, kata dia aku gamau nanti kalo putus kita berantem ohyeaahh klasik banget alesan lo. kalo cinta ya cinta, gaada kata putus. belom apa2 aja udah mikir putus yagaksih haha gua sekuat kuat nya batin banget gua bilang iyaaa hehe enakan gini kokkk. hahaha bodoh. boong lagi deh:)

semenjak sama dia semua chat orang males gua bales, cuman nunggu dari dia. ssampe dibilang sombong dan udah ga bbman gara2 gua di cap bbm kalo ada maunya doang haha. gua selalu coba ngerti kok kalo dia main gapernah ngabarin, yaaa paling nonton tv, ngecek hp. makaan, ngecek hp. semua bbm orang males gua read, paling kak dablang doang udah gaada lagi haha gua sayang banget pas itu.

dia orang baik gua tau, baik banget, makanya gua sayang dia hehe sayang banget. semenjak itu ya paling cuman chat sama orang seada2nya, cuman dia yang gua niat balesnya yaAllah sayang banget gimana sihhh gadaobat aduuuuh haha tai lah-_-

dia emosian.........kasar. gapeka. persetanan. ribet. dia sering ngontect gua kasar, gamikir gua bacanya batin, gua telen gapapaaaa lama2 numpuk2 dan gua gakuat sampe puncaknya sekarang............dia bilang sesuatu kasar. ngebatin. cewe manapun sakit hati pasti bacanya. sedih banget tauga hehe buat yang kesejuta kalinya gua nangis. tapi sekarang yang paling berasa, berasa capek sama kehidupan kaya gini, capek mikirin cowok mulu capek mikirin dia mulu, gua gapernah mau gini. banyak yang ngehibur gaada yang nyantol sumpah. udah dibilang gua sayang dia ya sayang, lo pada cuman bisa bilang tinggalin aja cowok kaya gitu tai gampang kali? haha. lo pada gangerasain. rasanya bener2 sayang. cuman ryan yang bisa bikin gua gini. nah iya dia:)

gua sering ngedumel gua gaboleh sayang lagi. gua gaboleh bales sms dia lagi, susah:') i hate the fact that i can never hate you and the fact that i'll always love you no matter what you put me through. NO MATTER.

gakpapa sekarang kita udah jauh, udah susah. hehe gua belajar banyak kok. baik2 ya disana gua sayang lo tulus........galiat apa2. tapi lo? haha yaudahlah semoga bahagia ya lo gua ikut seneng meskipun bukan sama gua haha.

maafya curhat gatau mau unek2in dimana lagi, cuman blog yang paling ngerti. yan, aku sayang kamu hahaha gila ego lu kalo lagi galau alay banget yak ginian aja di post wkwk bodo ah

'sometimes the hardest things to let go of, are the things you never really had.'

trailer film Radio Galau FM [2012]

buat apasih kita punya pacar,tapi kita masih sering ngerasa sendirian?:-)

@RadioGalauFM.

you're loved.

Boy: Hey, hun!
Girl: Hey.
Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren’t you there?
Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
Boy: Oh really? Why?
Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that’s all.
Boy: Oh.
Girl: So what did you guys do in Math today?
Boy: You didn’t miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.
Girl: Okay, good.
Boy: Yeah.
Girl: Hey, I have a question to ask.
Boy: Okay, ask away.
Girl: How much do you love me?
Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Why did you ask?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Is something wrong?
Girl: No. Nothing at all. Um. How much do you care about me?
Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.
Girl: You would?
Boy: Yeah of course I would. *sounding worried* Is there something wrong?
Girl: No, everything’s fine.
Boy: Are you sure?
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Okay. I hope so.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: I would take a bullet for you any day, hun.
Girl: Really?
Boy: Any day. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?
Girl: No, I’m fine. You’re fine. We’re fine. Everyone and everything is fine.
Boy: Okay.
Girl: Well, I have to go. I’ll see you tomorrow at school.
Boy: Alright, bye. I love you!
Girl: Yeah. I love you too. Bye.
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL
Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?
Friend: No.
Boy: Oh.
Friend: She wasn’t here yesterday, either.
Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.
Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.
Boy: Yeah, but not her.
Friend: I don’t know what else to say, man.
Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to English. I’ll see ya after school.
Friend: Yeah I gotta get to Science. Later.
THAT NIGHT
Girl: Hello?
Boy: Hey.
Girl: Oh, hey.
Boy: Why weren’t you at school today?
Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.
Boy: Are you sick?
Girl: Um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.
Boy: I’ll wait.
Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.
Boy: Alright. I love you.
-very long pause-
Girl: *with a tears in her eyes* Look, I think we should break up.
Boy: What?!
Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I love you.
THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE
Boy: Hey dude.
Friend: Hey.
Boy: What’s up?
Friend: Nothing. Hey, have you talked to your ex lately?
Boy: No.
Friend: So you didn’t hear?
Boy: Hear what?
Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you..
Boy: Dude, just tell me!
Friend: Uh. Call this number, 433-555-3468.
Boy: Okay, thanks!
BOY CALLS THE NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Victoria.
Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.
Voice: What is their name, sir?
*boy gives info*
Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.
Boy: Really? Why? What happened? How is she?
Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.
Boy: WHAT HAPPENED?!
Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.
Boy: WAIT! NO!
THE BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM 646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. THE GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
Boy: Oh my God, are you okay?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Dear, talk to me!
Girl: I..
Boy: You what?
Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.
Boy: *breaks into tears*
Girl: They’re taking me off tonight.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .
Boy: Why didn’t you tell me?
Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.
Boy: You could never hurt me.
Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.
Boy: Huh?
Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
Boy: *crying*
Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be there with you.
Boy: Then why did you break up with me?
Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.
The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
NEXT DAY
The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.
THE NOTE SAID:
“I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”

Saaski♥

saskia asmaraningrum.dia temen segalanya buat gue deh dia baik banget ngerti&selalu ngasih saran kritik yg bagusbagus sygbgt sama dia pokoknya yeaaa♥ gue juga bingung awal2 kenal saski gimana.emang udah pernah duluu banget kenal&sama sekali gadeket.trs tiba2 17july dia ngucapin birthdayy.trs dia follow twitter gue&liat di tl emang gue galau mulu mungkin dia kesian kali wakakaka trs dia nawarin gue cerita sama dia.gue cerita sampe puaaaaaaaaaaaaas sampe lega& dia ngasih saran bagusbgt buat gue lega selega2 nya org lega gimanasih?yagitudeh.terus dia juga cerita dan kita jd superduper deket kalo gak ada adri pasti gue chat nya sama dia(•̯͡.•̯͡). yaaa pokoknya ngerasa lucky banget punya temen kaya diaa nanti sma juga mau sama2 di 60 semoga dibolehin mamah:')

hem i just realized that i'm so luck to bein' her bestie.i love herr!♥ &i think i need her to tell 

bout my problems cause i know that she's the best listeners& she's always cheer me up,gimme solution,always be there for me.may Allah bless& protect you wherever you're sass♥

follow her @saskiamrr okayy mwaa♥

young hearts run free.

i want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall& make all the girls jealous.i want someone who would sing to me at random moments.someone who is more goofy that romantic.a boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb.
Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win:p.a guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh♥.he'd play with my hair all the time&surprise me with 25 cent rings.someone who i could share lollipops with&lay on a blanket with to count the stars.we'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest picture of each other&squirt water guns at each other in the house.but mostly..........................one who would be my best friend&would never break my heart.he would just always make me smile!☺

too tired.

31july.i'm just sad.the kind if sad that leaves you with no energy.the kind of sad that makes you want to crawl into bed&never wake up.the kind of sad that overwhelms you so that talking/moving or even smiling is painful.the kind of sad that you can feel it in your heart.it just sadness:'

Take me broken Heal my soul Take me broken Leave me whole.

Adriansyah♥̸̨

sekali2 yaa cerita tentang pacar wkwk.aaa bener deh can't explain how much I loved him.kalo lagi sama dia bawaannya tuh tenaang banget,dia bisa banget bikin nyaman,yang tadinya bete diajak bercanda jadi senyum lagi.awal awal ketemu sama dia tuh di karpol,biasa masih baru baru jadian gitu wkwk tapi dia tuh bedaa sama cowo lain,biasanya kan malu2 ya kalo dia langsung asik banget dari pertama aja udah dibikin nyaman banget.pertama tuh kita kerumah ka rhio sama ka nanda juga,naik taksi wkwk.pas sampe dijalan mau kerumahnya tuh kepala gue dielus dan baru gitu aja gue udah seneng banget yekan wkwk.sampe rumahnya dia tiduran di paha gue manja banget deh pokoknya,sayang banget weei.terus tangan gue dipegangin terus ah nyaman banget deh,mata dia tuh coklaat jadi gimana gitu liat nya bulu mata nya lentik banget lagi wkwk,dia juga jail banget sayang banget deh pokoknya.hem pas pertama2 ketemu sih dia liat bb gue dan gitudeh wkwk dulu kan gue masih setia.setiap tikungan ada.ah tapi dia juga-_-nah makin kesini makin sayang makin serius,sampe rela ninggalin orang buat dia.dia juga:) dia tuh idiot banget.suka joget tiba2.kadang gaya bebek gitu lucu deh wkwk.EH tapi dia juga gituu yaa genit wei genit.masa didepan gue ber2 an sama cewe lain,mau nangis ditahan kan akhirnya wkwk,giliran gue sama cowo lain gaboleh.apa namanya?wkwk.pokoknya makin kesini makin seriuus dia bilang mau selamanya sama gue amin deh yao:) he's kind, caring so much and he really show me that he loved me too much.yaa semoga awet,respect more,argue less,keep loving each other♥̸̨
I love you too death.

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